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- Comments: I suppose my own spin of "Nothing's wrong."
One of four, all going to be strung together, possibly.
Yaaaaay, cliche. <3 Teenage angst.
Also: I feel happier and lighter, oddly.
Also: Also: I write my "f"s backwards, for those of you who didn't know. The whole, forward bit looks odd to me.
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No really, I’m fine. Even when I hate when you talk to her, and when you do those things to save face. How you know I don’t trust her and yet you keep on goin’. Have I told you I love you so much it scares me sometimes, baby? That sometimes, I’m afraid you’re gonna come to your senses and leave me for a prettier model, one that’s sweeter and without all the baggage. Or that maybe you’ll choose to go to good ol’ New York and ya might find yourself a nice city slick girl that knocks you off of your feet. Or even if you find yourself a boy. All those kisses, sweetheart. Oh boy, oh boy.I sure am aching for them now. I need to remind myself that we’re alright, to keep this green eyed sprite down. You know my mind’s great with all those “what if games, how it curls around the darkest corners and plucks at every string. Mom’s never had a love like ours, you know. At least not from what she’s told me about love. That scares me too. That she’s never known something like this. She’s mom. My best friend, aside from you, of course. She should know, right baby? Her and dad didn’t work out so good, they fought about the drugs, the money, the drinking. Especially the drinking.You know, baby, that’s one of the reasons I don’t like when you drink so much. I don’t want that with us. He almost hit her one night, baby. You wouldn’t do that, right? N’aww, you love me. I know that. But, sometimes my mind goes there. Please be patient. She kicked him out of the house when I was young, and we moved in with my grandma for a year or so. Eventually got our own place, where I’m living now. My family’s big on being there for each other, not so much on loving or forgiveness. Lord knows we need help with that. Mom says she’s forgiven him, but I think she still hurts some nights. She doesn’t like being around him. That’s what we do, right? We take ourselves away from those that hurt us, right baby? Your kisses would really help right now, for each and every one of these lines. I don’t sleep as well as when I have you around. I’m sure you’ve come to hate these words, each and every time I utter them. A haphazard muttering of them. I’m fine. And you always know I’m not, I hate doing it. I really do. Even as they leave my lips my head’s saying, “You dolt.” But, it’s easier than admitting when I’m scared or when it’s something we’ve been over a few times. It still hurts. I’m sorry about that. Please don’t make fun of my beliefs, either. Some days, I feel a little bit of myself crumble when I see you joking like that, even knowing it’s a joke and not meant to be hurtful in an way. She still hates me, you know. And goodness it hurts to have that coming from your own family, enough, so that she doesn’t want me around her kids. My favorite one. I can’t spend time with him without mom.
Everything's so awkward.
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The f is backwards